I dream of travelling. I dream of seeing the world. I love history, old houses, old buildings....
My dreams feel so far away. My life is not mine right now.
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Friday, February 7, 2014
I really hate confrontation. And I don't like to be intentionally mean, so I have to vent my frustration before I reply to things.
My son has been with me probably 95% of the time for the last month or so and I get "does it every occur to you to discuss anything about __ with his dad?". Honestly... no! He's hardly ever been part of decision making in his life (it was usually his step mom and I because his dad was always working) and now that he's with me all the time why should I?? You want to parent from afar? Tell me what to do and let me take the brunt of everything? Nice.
My son has been with me probably 95% of the time for the last month or so and I get "does it every occur to you to discuss anything about __ with his dad?". Honestly... no! He's hardly ever been part of decision making in his life (it was usually his step mom and I because his dad was always working) and now that he's with me all the time why should I?? You want to parent from afar? Tell me what to do and let me take the brunt of everything? Nice.
Monday, January 13, 2014
Trying something new
I know blogging isn't new, but it is new to me. I decided I needed to start writing and why not blog it.
My life isn't exciting, but I have plenty of drama, much to my dismay. I really don't like drama. I know some women feed off of it, but I do not. I prefer calm happiness.
My current drama is primarily my 16 year old son. He can be such a fun, loving son one minute and then a panting madman the next. It's so frustrating and I have never had anyone push me to my limit like he does. It's so hard because I don't know if this is normal teenage behavior or if he has something chemically wrong.
To add to the stress of having a 16 year old, I am divorced and have to co parent with his dad and stepmom. We have gotten along fairly well considering. Unfortunately, the more my son acts out, the more they push it off on me (because they have other children). I love my son, so I like having him with me, but they like to comment and give their opinion on how things should be even though he's at my house. This causes me more stress than my son does because I'm a people pleaser so it's tough for me to tell them to leave me alone. I also feel a little ganged up on since there are two of them and just me.
Everyone keeps telling me things will get better (with the teenager) so I just try to be positive.
My life isn't exciting, but I have plenty of drama, much to my dismay. I really don't like drama. I know some women feed off of it, but I do not. I prefer calm happiness.
My current drama is primarily my 16 year old son. He can be such a fun, loving son one minute and then a panting madman the next. It's so frustrating and I have never had anyone push me to my limit like he does. It's so hard because I don't know if this is normal teenage behavior or if he has something chemically wrong.
To add to the stress of having a 16 year old, I am divorced and have to co parent with his dad and stepmom. We have gotten along fairly well considering. Unfortunately, the more my son acts out, the more they push it off on me (because they have other children). I love my son, so I like having him with me, but they like to comment and give their opinion on how things should be even though he's at my house. This causes me more stress than my son does because I'm a people pleaser so it's tough for me to tell them to leave me alone. I also feel a little ganged up on since there are two of them and just me.
Everyone keeps telling me things will get better (with the teenager) so I just try to be positive.
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